Don't Stop Believing

So, it took me a few days to really figure out what I wanted my New Year's resolution to be. But at long last, here it is. I want to actively reconnect with as many of my former school mates as possible. I know we've all gone our seperate ways after school ended, but I would just like to visit each and every one of you. I want to hear all about the extraordinary lives you now lead, and I want to try and be a part of your lives as much as possible, as much as you'll let me.

My New Year's resolution is to be your friend all over again. To be there for you when you need support or help or just someone to listen to you or sit with you in silence. I will be that friend. You will never be without a friend ever again for as long as I live.

If I could have a single wish, I'd only wish to never miss it, when you wake up and smile.
It makes me happy when you steal a little kiss before you wake me up to listen to the news for a while
And when you're creeping out of bed I sneak a peek to see just what you were wearing last night
Or what was leftover from ripping off our clothes. I check to see that door was closed as you were turning out the lights

I can't believe this is happening. I really can't believe this is happening. How can the best day of my life and the worst day of my life happen one right after the other like that? It's like I wasn't ever meant to have something truly wonderful. Not that I don't think the band is something truly wonderful. It is! I love the band. I would do anything for the band. But Lilah... It just hurts. It hurts so much.

And like the others, I'd like to have a few drinks, to dull the pain, to make it go away for a little while. But I can't. I have to be strong. I can't allow myself to break into a thousand little pieces again. My mother always said I was strong, but she didn't see me cowering in fear at Hogwarts. She didn't see how easily I gave into dating Stephen. She doesn't know how weak I truly am. Only I know that.

But I can't let this destroy me. I have to face this head on. I'll eat chocolate until I throw up, but I'm not touching an ounce of alcohol. I just wish we were back in the days when things were simple. Nothing is simple any more. And I know there are people out there with real problems, like Vee, but this is so difficult for me to handle right now.

Relax, Megan. You can do this. You will do this.

I wish mum were here.

I need to see you all in the kitchen please. Thank you.

[Merlin's Pants]
So, as most of you probably already know, Stephen and I have gone on a date. And perhaps, several more in the future. However, I want you to know that this is not going to change anything with regards to the band. We are fully committed to the band, and nothing could possibly change that.

I really hope you're all okay with this.
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[Stephen]
Who else should we tell? Unless you don't want to tell anyone.
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Rob doesn't know yet, and you all better keep quiet about this for now, but Verity is getting married to Oliver Wood. She just told me. What should we do? Should we tell him? I don't want him to be upset though, and I'm not sure it's my place to tell him anyway. I just feel bad holding onto this.

Oh my goodness, I just read the papers. There aren't words for what has happened. I truly am sorry for those who've lost loved ones. How awful!

( Merlin's Pants )

He invited her to the Quidditch game? Is that correct?






What does that mean? Exactly?

I mean, she's very nice, don't get me wrong. I'm just.... wondering. I guess...

written at 3:50 AM with tear drop stains on the page




It needs to stop thundering. Please just stop thundering.

But you.. give me the electric twist
And it kicks, it kicks like a pony
And true, you might get away with it
It's a risk
It's a risk, yeah

I'm happy today.

I think I'm going to visit Mum. I haven't had a chance to see her since we've been back. She's likely swamped with work as always, but I'll just pout in her general direction, and she'll make time for her favorite (and only) daughter.

And at some point, I need to go shopping.

Italian sausage
Ground beef
Onions
(Does anyone know if we still have garlic? Could have sworn I saw some.)
Tomato paste
Tomato sauce
Noodles

Yeah... fun times reading my journal, everyone.

The world is, the world is
Love and life are deep
Maybe as his skies are wide


One day I will play this song on the drums and not feel ashamed.

That day, however, is not today.

( True love never dies. It just becomes the air you breathe. )